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guess everyone knows how does it feel when u have a crush or, like someone but you dont know how does he/she thinks about u or feel for u..
n thn, u wanna tell him/her tht u likes him/her but you dont have the guts to do so because ure afraid of being rejected
being rejected is actually no big deal..is just that ure afraid tht this person might start avoiding u, n tht time, fren also no fren d..get what i mean?

hmmm..isn't it good this way that ure both good frens now, both of u can just talk watever, joke whatever, without thinking anyting, feeling shy, kekok or watever..
but if u confess to him/her , both of u will like..start to talk less mayb?feeling shy, kekok when seeing each other the next time..
n thn it wont be as fun and happy as b4..the friendship is gone..

im crapping here, but wtf, i'll still continue..hahaha

k..when u both see each other, u just act like normal......like...
friends!!
n after that u go back to ur normal life..boring, lifeless..
thn u start to look for ur buddies..so u will stop thinking of him/her, for awhile..
but aftr wif buddies, u go back, u still have to face it..

the feeling of missing him/her...u wanna talk to him/her for like the conversation never ends...
eventually when you talk to him/her u tend to forget everything..eat,sleep,work, whatever..just everything
the time u're with him/her is like..u feel urself as though u're in heaven, u tend to lose all ur worries and problems..

besides, u'll start to do silly things, stupid things in ur unconcious mind. for him/her
even things u hate doing..u'll eventually do it with passion..

so, do you wanna lose this kinda contact wif him/her while u risk confessing to him/her?
no, you woudnt want it..
isnt it good being like that?im cool with u, ure cool with me..

but u somehow want to know how he/she thks towards you..
thn, u start to have sleepless nights, thinking of him/her
u wish you could talk to him/her for the whole night

this is what im facing right now..ahahha..
cant sleep..
somehow miss her, want to tell her, but afraid to
cz i treasure the frenship..
n i know, she will never likes me..ahahha!to her, i'm just a fren la..

she's not from my college anyway, b4 u all, my collmates get misunderstanding, i better say it here 1st..ahahah!

so...yea..i kinda have a crush or, like this girl, a fren of mine
n she treats me just like a fren la..which is hard for me ya know..
but our relationship now is good ler..
n i duwanna spoil it..

guess tht's it..i typed so long..now oni get to the point..wahahhaha!!
lidat oni fun ma..

oh ya..if u ask me.."what bout MY?no more d ar?give up liao ar?"
ahahahah..
well, this is what u all want rite?not to thk bout MY again n all..

if u thk "yer, this fella..so fast like other edi.."
go ahead n i dn give a sh*t
n b4 u thk, ask urself 1st k?
n if u're not lidat, good for u...the world loves you

me n MY ar..hmm..i already face the reality la..it took me bout 4-5 months to actually face it..
not really a long time actually..
i also love myself geh..duwanna continue hurting myself, thnking bout her..
she actually did gave me sweet memories n yea, i wont forget these memories..
i'm still keeping her stuff n all..

me n her..no contact d also ler..to her, im like..an enemy or wat i dunno la..
mayb her current bf woudlnt want her to contact me anymore, i dunno..
i dn mind being fren n all still la..but to her, ive got no idea wats in her mind..
who am i to her, i dunno..

MY, if ure reading this, thank you for the memories..
you actually opened my eyes to see things which i dont see before..
frankly speaking, u're the only ex-gf who changed my perspective in seeing certain things..good n bad also got la..
n again, i'm sorry for the things i've done n not being a good n understanding bf which every girl wants..
if u free n dn mind, 1 day come out yum char la..u can bring KG along too..hehe

n oh ya, people, WATCH "Wei Xiao Pasta(Smile Pasta)" nice drama series..the only taiwan series tht caught my attention..ekeke
even i dun understand chinese also i watch k...
now u know how good it is..ahahah!!
can get d DVD in any stores, watch from YouTube, download from internet!!now until episode 15 already!!go go go!!!

promoting sial..

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